Today's my mother birthday, so here's a poem just for you mom

My Mother’

                                                                            

Most moms are special

But my mother is something genuine and precious

Her love stretches further that anything imaginable

She is just so incredible

She is outstanding, hardworking and incredibly amazing

Her ways and spirit is always so captivating

Even though sometimes things are not going right with her

She manages to put smiles on our faces, mom that makes you who you are

Words really can’t begin to describe how lucky we are to have you in our life

You’re our counselor, even though to others you might be a simple housewife

Mom you bring out the best in us, always making us aim for the stars

You are one of a kind and we’re truly honoured to call you ours

For my mom Deoranie Balkissoon

xoxo you're daughter

-Rach

The Beast Within

I have this darkness buried deep within

I need to let out, not sure how to begin

It’s beneath the surface just waiting to break free

Once out it stays, even if it’s wild and beastly

This really dark chapter is taking over

Others see it too, it’s becoming difficult to cover

It feels perfect even though I know this could all go wrong

And I can’t fight it, this picture perfect person isn’t that strong

It feels bad but yet so very good

Like this lioness hidden under a pretty hood

When the time feels right, it’ll strike

Danger in full mode, this beast wasn’t born overnight

-By Racheal Balkissoon

My Dark Place

I can’t control it

Neither can I quit

Call it a cry for help

Well maybe it just is

Surrounded by fear

That’s eating me up in more ways than one

Help may be too far out of reach

Or probably already gone

All I see is darkness, that’s buried in my soul

Arms that have withered, a heart that is cold

Eyes that see through lies

A monster in disguise

I can’t explain how it happened

But I’m not this good person

At least not any more

I become this creature behind a closed door

One that’s been banished

But wants karma in the game

One who wants closure

But won’t try to have it unless there’s pain

-          By Racheal Balkissoon

#RANDOMTHOUGHTS...

Lately it became so hard for me to express myself, the way I feel…like I normally do. Writing poems used to be my way of letting go, of truly expressing what’s inside my head but unfortunately it doesn’t help any more, I try to find the right words to say but it doesn’t exactly come out right, my rhymes are messed up and I somehow end up in this really dark place. It’s like even I don’t understand what’s going on right now.

-Rach

The End

My world is shattered

Everything close to me became scattered

I can’t tell what direction the truth is coming from

My thoughts are literally on a run

Can’t win if you’re not a part of the competition

Fear became my favorite emotion

 The gap between faith and reality is almost more than a mile

But erase that frown, heads up, put on that big fake smile

Everything has it specific time

A time for laughter and a time for cries

Clearly nothing is as it seems

Dreams are not meant to come true, that’s all they are, just dreams

-By Racheal Balkissoon

BEING IN LOVE

I’ve fallen in love for the first time

This time it really does feel right

It may be too soon but I'm honored to call you mine

This feeling is one I would fight for with all my might

Sure I’ve had relationships in the past

That may have almost felt perfect

But I’ve been in them knowing for a fact none of them would last

Somehow all the others I chose before were complete wrecks

Not bragging or boasting too much about us

Just honestly explaining the way I feel

You didn’t have to do anything much to gain my trust

For the first time in forever this actually feels real

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Really, gossiping takes us nowhere so here's a poem for it...

We often find ourselves talking about other people

Whenever they do something good, but mostly something bad

But not once have we stopped to think whose feeling we’re hurting

Or who we’re making feel sad

We all have sins and things we do hidden away in the dark

Not one of us is perfect we all have our flaws

But who are we to judge others

When we all have come short

We fail to realize that none of us is God here on earth

Then why judge you’re neighbor

When you yourself are doing things

That you know are wrong

Sins aren’t measured in size, there’s no large or small

A sin is already a sin whether it be big or small

A thought of murder is no different from the act

And your little white lies are not far from that.

If God himself didn’t judge that woman caught in adultery

Then really who are we to be judging anybody

If these words make no sense to you…judge me

He who is without sin may cast the first stone, but before examine yourself and realize you’re not far from everybody

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Dreams do come true

My life wasn't always a fairy tale

There were times it was on an uneven scale

I used to feel so depressed and alone

and spent most of my days locked at home

From my entire past nothing was gained 

I started off each day with pain

It felt like inside my head was a big war

I never imagined I'd get this far

But then you came my way

with all your craziness you brightened my day

you changed me from lonely and blue

now I'm a new person all thanks to you

You always have the nicest words to share

And always there to show how much you love and care

I must say my dream really did come true 

Cause i never thought i'd meet any one like you

-By Racheal Balkissoon

TITLE: NO FEELINGS

Dark is my spirit

Doubtless, bold; FEARLESS

Of little words I became

Hurt is now my favorite game

Don’t get tangled and no one gets hurt

Since believing in destiny is like waiting for rain in a desert

Even if you think you found it, don’t believe it’s true

It’s hilarious, but guys are good actors too

Call me a whatever I don’t care

Being selfish is perfect with no emotions to share

New beginnings with no feelings

Please them for a while, then it’s over with no meaning

-By Racheal Balkissoon

I NEED A TITLE FOR THIS POEM

Waiting for the day you realize

How much it hurts me to see you cry

Hoping for a chance to fully explain

Why I tried to get you out of this miserable game

You’re hurt, I understand

I’m just not the right person to fit your demands

Maybe when all the anger comes to a halt

It’ll come clear how neither of us was at fault

I did what I had to do

I had no other choice, I did it to protect you

It’ll all be okay though, no need to worry

When this all blows over I hope you know I’m truly sorry

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Can’t get over you

It’s been a year since you went away

And I finally saw you again yesterday

Everything about you has changed

And talking to you feels so strange

Thought I was finally over you

But seeing you again brings back feelings anew

I know we’ve both moved on

How can loving you feel so right, but yet so wrong

I guess this love for you will last forever

Even though I know we can’t be together

Every moment I’m with him I think of you

But I can’t help it, what must I do?

I can’t seem to leave you in the past

Because I honestly thought we would have last

But now I have to leave you behind for sure

And come to realize we are no more

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Finally there

Years have passed

Dreams were trashed

Faith has died

Hurt was intensified

Love was lost

Feelings were crossed

All was wrong

Pain had just gotten strong

Then it happened

A dove came tapping

On a stone wall built up high

Still the doors flung open wide

A rose in a garden of thorns

One that gave reasons to not mourn

Gently picked up the pieces of glass

And somehow turned it to something first class

Love, hope, dreams…Faith was restored

All the wrongs turned into rights once more

Confidence was built, no need to be scared

Looking back I’ve realized I was finally there

-By Racheal Balkissoon

I’m sorry I gave you hopes that this’ll all work

But you keep pushing me down and I’m getting tired of brushing off the dirt

I’ve tried everything to make you see

That this all I’ve ever wanted and this is how I wanted it to be

I know the consequences and was ready to face them

But no matter how hard I tried convincing you, you made me feel dumb

You have no idea how much I loved you and still do

You’re all I ever think about, only you

I know eventually things would have worked out differently

I had hopes that we wouldn’t have to face stormy weather everyday

I saw where you were coming from, I tried placing myself in your shoe

Yes you do have a point, but I have one too

Imagining a life without you, is a life gone to waste

I knew that we would have achieved many things by God’s grace

Maybe you were right, maybe this isn’t meant to be

That’s why you keep pushing me off and honestly I’m tired of trying to make you see reasons, I’m tired of all your anger and agony.

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Life doesn't go our way

Life doesn’t exactly go our way

We just hope and pray for things to get better each day

Nothing ever turns out the way we plan

Sometimes it feels like our dreams are blown away by one big fan

Life doesn’t always go our way

We don’t always get that much luck everyday

The world we live in today is not easy

The things we have to go through are not very pleasing

Life just get worst each passing day

Even though we try to make it better in each possible way

People often say reach for the stars

But in our world, just touching the ceiling is way too far.

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Perfect when you’re here

This long distance thing isn’t working out

My head’s starting to fill with so much doubt

How did we ever end up like this?

It’s like we’re pounding on each other faces with our bare fists.

I know that when you’re with me

Everything seems perfect, like that’s the way it should be

And I know that this doesn’t seem fair

But the road ahead of us really isn’t clear

We can never be the same people we were

Even though we’ve made it this far

Right now I’m losing so much hope

It’s like our relationship is hanging by a thread, not a rope

Now that you’re away

It’s like the memories of us are fading away day by day

This would have worked out if you were near

Because everything’s perfect when you’re here

-By Racheal Balkissoon

So today we said farewell to our revenue manager who is being transferred to another division...
To our manager....


This is it, it's finally here
The day you leave us and go elsewhere
Not trying to make you cry or create a big fuss
But it just feels like we're losing a part of us

We're losing a gem,  one that made us smile
And it hurts so much to have to actually say good bye
A role model and our personal counsellor
Your judgement was always fair, you made a great manager

In your new office there would be trials and people trying to pull you down
But don't let obstacles stand in your way, continue being strong
Here at GWI region 5 you'll always be legendary
Simple things you did and words you say became an inspiration to many

-By Racheal Balkissoon

**YOU**

You crawled into my life and stole my dreams

You snatched my heart with just one glimpse

You leave me mesmerized every time you walk by

You take my breath away when you smile

You have a way of making my heart melt

You are the greatest way I’ve ever felt

You just have to look at me to make that happen

You are indeed truly amazing

You helped me to do things I never thought I was capable of

You changed my life around and I must say I love you for that

You just continue being the person you are, I’m so proud to say

You are mine

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Broken

Dreaming of what we used to be, but isn’t anymore

All the times we spent together somehow disappeared from your heart

I use to think that this feeling was the greatest ever, I used to be so sure

And if destiny ever decides to bring us back together, I’d rather be miles apart
                                                 
You could never make a proper commitment

You keep running from responsibilities

You’re just always so dependent

You choose to defy your capabilities

You let other people decide who you should keep in your life for you

You’re not man enough, I doubt you ever would be

And whenever a situation confronts you, you pretend that you’re not a part of it, like you never had a clue

And every single time you slip up, you somehow manage to turn everything and put the blame on me

How could I ever be so stupid to fall for such a selfish, ignorant jerk?

I was indeed blinded by something which I can’t explain

One day all of your evil deeds will blow up in front of you like one big firework

And then you’ll realize that all those time you wasted telling lies there was really nothing gained.

-By Racheal Balkissoon

BODY LANGUAGE

Your smile says something your voice would never say

Your eyes starts a story once upon a time far, far away

Your mind holds the suspension

While your heart has a whole different intention

Your arms don’t know what to fight for anymore

Your feet are confused as to which destination to go for

Your trust got caught up somewhere along the line

And your emotions are playing tug-war between earth and cloud nine

You’re trying to scream for help but it just doesn’t come out

You’re not even sure what’s next, your head’s filled with doubt

You’re holding on to everything that’s at your advantage

But even with that, you hope someone would truly understand your body language

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Perfect Illusion

Met him a few times in my dreams; fell in love before I even knew it

He was tall, with piercing brown eyes, he was perfect

Body of an idol I would say, lips so cherry red

Dreaming of him is all I want to do, I just can’t get him out of my head

An image of him appears in my head each time I close my eyes

All I need to hear is his voice alone, which must be like a sweet lullaby

His heart melting smile, his perfect cheeks

Just to feel his breath on my neck would make me weak

I long to feel his fingertips trace on my skin

He always takes me to places I’ve never been

Words could never be enough to say, but in conclusion

He is a daydream, my beautiful nightmare, just a perfect illusion

-By Racheal Balkissoon

Key to Poetry

Yeah poems are for the rhymes

But you ask, why write them, it’s just a waste of time

Feelings, and the way to express them in one

Poems are there to cheer us up when we’re down

All the anger, joy or hurt we feel deep inside

Just put them in words, no feelings to hide

No better person to vent your hurt in than yourself

After writing a poem all those bad thoughts feels like it’s been packed away on a shelf

Don’t have to get a degree to express how you feel

Just put it in words and those bad wounds would be healed

When you’re having another one of those stormy days

 Go back and read those poems and all the dark clouds would fade away.

Stop caring about where, what, why and when

It’s that simple just get a paper and a pen

When writing a poem, what exactly goes through a poet’s head?

Are those exact thoughts and feeling you would have read

- By Racheal Balkissoon

Thank you

Thank you for walking away

Thank you for making me lost for words to say

Thank you for breaking my heart

Thank you for not playing your part

Thank you for leaving me behind

Thank you for making me feel like a waste of time

Thank you for cheating on me

Thank you for not being sorry

Thank you making your own decisions

Thank you for not involving me in them

You’ve made me who I am today

Stronger in each possible way

I know you’re the reason I am this person

The reason the hatred for love in me had worsen

I do like the person I am now, no longer feeling lonely and blue

I owe my new personality to one person, and this is my way of saying thank you!!

-By Racheal Balkissoon

One way relationship

I loved you so bad it hurt

We used to be one of a kind, a work of art

Then you moved away and met somebody new

I never imagine this is what you would put me through

I’m helpless with no tears left to cry

You said you loved me but I guess you lied

Pretending for you has always been so simple

But through it all I guess I should have learnt something from all my past examples

Above everything else I trusted you more

I loved you more than I loved anyone else before

I stood up for you and would defend you anytime

Without knowing however you felt for me could be easily declined

-By Racheal Balkissoon

With you

With you everything’s changing

Feels like my entire heart’s rearranging

You always manage to put a smile on my face

And send my heartbeat on a race

You’re absolutely breath taking

There’s some parts of me you’ve finally awaken

Honestly I can’t find the right words to say

Just that you’re on my mind all day

I know there are times we have our ups and downs

And neither of us likes to admit that we’re wrong

But I just want to let you know my feelings will always stay the same

This love we have isn’t a game

Words can’t explain the feelings I have for you

I just hope you feel the same way too

All I know is that we’re meant to be

It’s not just faith, its destiny

-By Racheal Balkissoon

~God’s Purpose~

Have you ever wondered what’s your purpose here on earth?

What exactly is this life worth?

Have you ever closed your eyes and imagine

What life would be like if Adam and Eve didn’t sin?

Everybody has a purpose in their life which needs to be fulfilled

And that plan must happen, Its God’s will

That purpose may be things you never thought you could do

But God is there every step of the way guiding you

God said he will never leave you nor forsake you, but he will be with you until the end of all ages

And whatever he say he will stand upon, his word never changes

You just have to believe and trust in his words

And remember he is God Almighty, he is Lord.

-By Racheal Balkissoon